at anything.
I am much harder on myself then I am on anyone else. Is that the norm??!
I suck at sticking to anything.
Good eating habits- fail 99% of the time
Cooking- ok for a week then fail
Motherhood- pretty good most the time but sometimes I get selfish (shocking I know)
Exercise- great for 2 weeks then nada for 2 months+
Wife- pretty great in some areas that I won't mention... but totally suck in other areas (putting laundry away, keeping up with cleaning... what else is there?! lol )
I have no idea why I'm like this.
I don't have a passion for anything really. I would say I LOVE shopping but I have total guilt when I buy myself the littlest things.
I turn to food for comfort. Maybe because people *need* to have food to live. I dunno. Just throwing it out there. When I go shopping I always say to myself, "Do I REALLY need this?" and the answer is mostly no. Then I throw whatever I'm holding onto some random shelf nearby.
Why is it that once women have children they stop taking care of themselves? Cause this is totally my situation right now.
I really want a hobby or even to join Lady of America only to go to their Zumba classes. But it all goes back to $$. I hear the 'we aren't saving' speech every time bill paying time rolls around.
And I am cool with that. Cause I know he is only looking out for OUR best interest. It isn't like he is being an asshole about it.
I need to do something. I should have gone out walking this afternoon. Walking is so b.o.r.i.n.g!! Think I'd rather poke my eyes out!
I need some sort of motivation. I wanted my 10 yr reunion to be that motivation. Yeah well so much for that. It's gone!
Now I have this wild idea of going back to school in August in a much smaller size... August is closer then I realized! Damn it. It's always something.
I had a plan. I was going to wake up every morning and go walking when Lilly woke up. Yeah that has happened like ZERO time so far. I started a reading workshop this week so I couldn't. And before that I was in NC.
I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING FAST!
:::vent over:::
2 comments:
I totally understand. Sometimes I feel like I'm failing at everything all the time. Hang in there love.
I know exactly where you're coming from. I've never had a talent or a a hobby. I've never been able to say, I suck at sports but I'm really good at ______.
Just know that no one expects perfection in any of those areas.
Something I've learned lately is to change my expectations. I learned working out 4 days a week was just too hard. Two days is much more "doable". Eating well 365/7/24 isn't possible. Eating well the majority of the week is.
Be kind to yourself. Everything else will fall into place.
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