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That is how I feel right now. Ugh... blah! I feel like this week has sucked as far as WW. I have been slacking on tracking what I am eating. And I just went to my parents house for dinner and I weighed myself and its the same as last week. Ugh. I walked 3 nights this week and did 3 miles each time. My fricking shins are killing me. I am SO tired I feel like I could go to bed right now.
I got another bfn opk tonight. But we are sticking to the every other day plan. Tomorrow is my schools Christmas party. Maybe I'll get wasted (yeah right. aka drinking 2 bacardi&diets) and get KU! LOL I am such a light weight!
I am bummed that my sister (from N.C.) isn't coming into town till later now. She was originally going to be here on the 19th and now its the 24th. I am going to Minnesota (to see my other sister) the 26th- Jan 3rd and she is leaving the 4th. So I'll get to see her probably 2 days! boo.

Back to OPKs

So I am using OPKs again. Not so sure what to think. Today CD 11 was a BFN. I think that cycle where my chart, opks, and timing all lined up perfectly really tore me up! I thought it couldn't have looked better. But it wasn't my cycle! I am really hoping that this cycle (8) is it for me. Although it would put a huge dent in my weight watchers plan! I would love nothing more then to get PG but also know I REALLY need to get my ass in shape & get healthy. So I can really only be in control of one of those things and I am working my ass off to make it happen! 

I have my yearly on Dec 15th. Curious to see what her thoughts are about it all. She probably will say, see you in 5 months! I'm cool with that. Ok the laundry is calling my name!

Melt Downs

Me has them! I can't accept the fact that my parents are getting older. I was at a party on Saturday for a neigbor that we had growing up. And it hit me then, holy shit my dad is closer to 60 not 50 anymore (he's 56)! He has had gray hair ever since I can remember but his body is changing. Getting that older soft skin and he is loosing some muscle. Not sure why it bothers me but it does. And I let it all out after I left the party. DH and I were on our way to the Christmas boat parade. I cried like a freaking baby! I will not be ok the day something happens to them. And DH is full warned! I called my sister in N.C. sobbing. She thinks I'm nuts! I am ok now though. I spent the day out at my parents house since I realized I hardly do anymore since I got married and moved out! I will make a point to do that more often now. Vent over!
I bought some more CBE digital OPKs at Target today. Um, they were on sale for $25 so HOW could I pass that up?!! I am curious to see what day I get a + on this time.

Whoo Hoo

I lost 3 lbs. this past week! I just got home from weight watchers and I am thrilled with it so far. Its amazing how I could already feel it based on my clothes. I didn't feel like I was stuffing myself into my pants! I guess next week I'll find out how the program is changing. Hope its not that different then what I am use to.
On another note... why do people accept your friend request on FB and then when you send them a message they ignore it?! Not just a friend but an effing family member! I knew he drifted away from the family but I didn't realize he was going to be so rude. Asshole!
As far as TTC. I am up in the air as to what to do this cycle. To temp or not to temp is the question. Or should I just go back to my loves... the smiley face OPKs? Not sure yet.

Burnt out

I feel like burnt toast. Ha toast! ;)
I am just so tired of meeting after meeting about what we can/should be doing in our classrooms. So tired of getting more forms and papers to fill out and do to make sure we are meeting the needs of our students. Ugh. I say our because its not just me and my room its a school wide issue.
The kids are ALL high needs. Not only in academics but emotionally as well. So not only do I have to be responsible to teach them but also be mom too. Which I don't mind I just wish administration would lay off. They expect us to be doing Readers Workshop yet we have had about 4 hours of training it it. Um, no! I feel like telling them, "Get over yourself and the shit your telling the people at the district. We're not doing RW since we haven't been trained it it!" But no, I don't and they have no idea I feel this way. Its just easier to agree and do what I can. So that's what I'll keep doin!!

Ants!!!

I freaking HATE ants! For some reason they are every where around me! At home I spray all the time and they never go away. Little tiny black dots dead on my kitchen floor. Yes, dead but still annoying and dirty! Ugh. Then today at school they were all over my book baskets. Kids take home books and one of them must have eaten around it cause the basket was covered. Ugh! Gross.

And I am hungry. I don't think I've eaten enough points today. I have a headache. My dogs are hungry too but oh wait... there was ANTS in their food so they can't eat till DH gets home with new food! So I'll sit here and listen to them whine! I'm in a bitchy mood today. Must go eat something.

Aw!

Tired! I could not fall asleep for the life of me last night. So now I am so super tired and crabby. Wishing AF would leave faster so cycle # 8 can get started!

We went to eat a MIL house tonight. I have no idea how many points I ate! But I was good all day so I am sure I am fine. While there SIL told me I could be in the room when she has her baby! Aw! I thought that was so sweet of her. I asked her if she had any belly yet and she showed me. Its a tiny lil' thing but its there! So happy for them. Its going to be interesting to see how things are handled by everyone! I skipped out on walking tonight and now I feel like a bum. :(